Friday, December 31, 2010

Last post of the year!!


Heyyy...the last morning of the year...and hopefully, this is my last post of the year, too. Got the last salary of the year today, so planning to go on the last shopping-spree.

But the funniest part is, today, when I should have been out enjoying this last day having all the year-end moments, I am feeling like lazying around the whole day. I skipped the office today, when I could have had a little party in the office itself, just felt like lying around in the room. I am not even feeling like going out somewhere. I don't know, my body is screaming to me, "Today, don't ask me to get up!" I don't understand what the darn has happened to me? Am I having grey hair, walking with a stick, a pair of old-fashioned spectacles on my nose and coughing all the day around? I think I am feeling the symptoms - not the physical ones, but the mental ones for sure. OMG, I am growing olddd...NOOOOOO!!!!! Wait, is that lady on the top ME????? Noooooooooooooooooooo.............uhooo uhhhu uhhhhooooooo uhh[ COUGHING]..Harruummmpppphhhh!! Oh, excuse the old lady, I was just clearing my throat..!! [ DOES THAT REALLY SOUND LIKE ME? NO WAY!!]


I don't want to spend the last day of my deary goody goody year lying around watching TV or sitting in front of laptop. Actually you know what, 31st December comes once a year, but a weekend is a very lovely amazing charming thing. And a loonnng weekend of three days is an icing over the cake. It's like a lifetime opportunity for me :P

Let's see...maybe this is because I have just come back from the morning exercise and naturally, I am completely exhausted. I'll just have some rest, have a lovely lovely cozy cozy warm bubble-bath and then, if my body is in sync with my mind, I can go out spending my salary :)

~PeAcE oUt~

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Three days to goooooo..!!

With just three days to go for 2011 to enter my insignificant life, all the goody goody things about my deary 2010 just blew away in a snap. Just as the new year eve was approaching, we were getting more and more excited. We decided to spend this 31st in Bangalore, so even got the tickets booked. Luckily, it was a weekend so I didn't bother about getting stuck up in any hassle of applying for leave or whatever other crappy formalities are there. (I am quite sure, even for managers these formalities are crappy!! Uuggghhh!!) And just today, at the eleventh hour, an important task came up in the project which I handled before, so I couldn't even say NO. 

God is again playing with me. So, now the score is 2-1. Huh!! But dude, I am a tough one to beat. I called up my friends whom I was supposed to meet, and now because its a weekend, even they, too, don't have to get stuck up in any leave-applying procedure, they decided to come over and we'll be celebrating new year's eve in Hyderabad instead of Bangalore. Yayyy...whooppiiiieeeeeeeeee....I made the score 2-each!! 

Hopefully, everything now goes as planned. I don't want to spoil my new year's eve. And, to admit honestly, at some corner of my heart, I felt good. My brother  and my friends  are actually flying down to Hyderabad, specially to spend the new year's eve with me. The feeling of importance is getting the best of me right now and therefore, I conclude that this last significant thing that could have happened to me in this year also turned out to be good. So, now the score is actually 3-2!! Yoohooooo I am winning...keep up dude, you are doing good !! :P

~PeAcE oUt~

Bring on 2011


So, the time has come for my deary 2010 to be over. Actually, compared to the past few years, this year was the best. All the good things happened to me this year. With 2011 stepping slowly towards us, I would just like to take out a minute and count all the best things that happened to me this year. I began 2010 with my internship, and trust me it was the best period of my graduation. Then, I topped my college with aweeesssoooommmmeeee 97% in the last semester. I got the best job in my college, and within two months of starting the actual job, just after finishing the training, I got the employee excellence award. And the list goes on....


But, you can't always hold on to the good things. So now, I am excitingly waiting for 2011 to knock at my door. I hope it turns out to be better than 2010. Just be nice, 2011!!

And now, lets count the things I am waiting for in the new year.

Now, as the new year turns up, its the commonest tradition to have a new year resolution. I haven't thought about it yet, but never is too late. So, let's see...ummm....uuummmm...

I don't know..maybe to continue my aerobics classes...I can think of nothing else to resolve. Aah yes, I have to control my temper. Normally, I am not that high-tempered. Let me tell you that I am a very patient person. But when the threshold limit is crossed (and trust me that is very very difficult), nobody can control my anger - not even me. The fury gets the best of me and then only God knows what happens That is something I need to work upon. 

Now, amidst all this, I want to steal a vacation and visit my parents. Honestly, this was my first time I had been away from them for such a loooooonnnnnnnngggggg period of time. I'll take time to get used to it. Till then, I'll keep on missing them. 

The rest is still a mystery, but I am ready for whatever comes my way. Head ONNNN!!! 

~PeAcE oUt~



Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry christmas!!!

Whooooaaaaa...it's christmas..!! First of all, MERRY CHRISTMAS to all of you!! And its a weekend...I won't lie I am more excited about it being a weekend than it being christmas. In India, there is not much craze of christmas...but weekend is a weekend!!

As the festive season tip-toes towards us, I am getting more and more excited everyday to go to office. No, festivals are not the reason. The only reason being, all the managers of our units are on a vacation since Monday until next week. And it's going to be US..all the friends, having fun all day. WOWWWW...now that's a consolation. For me, a vacation doesn't mean much because already I am staying out of my home, and honestly, this place doesn't appeal to me as much as Delhi does. So, taking an off doesn't ring any "jingly-jingly" bells inside. I would prefer having a good time in office. And this is a weekend....awesomeeee!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, today me and my room-mate are planning to go for a movie. We should have left by now, but we are feeling so lazy this weekend - we don't feel like getting up - we haven't even started getting ready. Let's see what haaaa..yaaawwwwwwwnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!


~PeAcE oUt~

Friday, December 24, 2010

Woooorrrrkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!

An amazing morning tea with tatkal reservation followed up with me yawning all around!! It's just time to leave for work..and I'm still in no mooooo....bhoooooooottttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What a morning with Tatkal reservation!!

It's a friday morning - yayyy the weekend is about to arrive...but again, what's so yayyy about it??? I was not feeling well since the past two days. I was super tired and I had planned to go to office a bit late today and sleep for a longer time than usual. But then, there was this job I had been assigned. I was supposed to book two tickets for my friend (a friend who was a bit close to me - so I couldn't say NO!) who was travelling, in Tatkal quota.

God knows what goes inside me when I hear that one word. My whole sleep buzzes off , my body shivers, the shrill runs throughout my nerves and all the symptoms of anxiety, fear come to me at once.

For those, who don't know, Tatkal quota is where you reserve tickets in a train two days before the scheduled date of departure. It generally opens for reservation to public at 8:00 A.M. With a huge population in India, with most of them preferring to travel by train, everybody sits ready at their systems by 7.30 with all the details entered, just ready to click the damn rat (read: mouse) as soon as it turns 8. But it just so happens that, at 8 o'clock, the servers go down, the site being unable to handle such a high load. If after trying for half an hour or so, the site opens, its so slow that the javascripts don't work. Damn! That used to happen to me when the board results were supposed to be out. At that time too, I used to leave it on its own, and tried after half an hour and used to peacefully get the result. But, as the statistics goes, the number of people who sat in the board exams and are waiting for the results is so small that it can be neglected in front of the number of people who are trying to book the tickets in tatkal quota.

Had it been my own case, I would have just gone to a travel agent a few days back, given him 20-30 bucks in the name of his fees, got the tickets booked, and just on this Friday morning when I was super-tired, would have been sleeping peacefully and a mail would have been lying in my mailbox somewhere waiting to appear before me and tell me that my tickets have been reserved successfully. But NO, dear Mr. God had some other plans for me. And because it was my friend, I couldn't say anything. He knew my weakness and took advantage of it. OK - so the score is 1-each now. Pheww. A tough competition it is, I tell you!

Tatkal reservation is a spooky experience for me - an adventure which obviously, I never want to take up. I feel that whenever I want to book tickets in tatkal, a ghost turns up around me - which will never let me do things. Something or the other ghostly will happen - and it will do everything - every darn thing to stop me from booking the tickets. Or maybe, another possiblity just striked me, my computer just turns into a ghost.

Till now, I am just refreshing the page, because one or the other func..cc..uncc....helllpppppp!! Ghossssssstttttttttttt!!!! AAaaaaaahhhhhhh...I saw it I saw it...runnnn..!!!

~PeAcE oUt~

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Helpless yet Strong

Last week, something happened that touched me - not only touched me, but stirred me, shook me inside out. Me and my friend are the best of pals we could ever be. We have our share of pressure, but then more than our share of fun, too! That day, we were in mood of celebrating, just like that, without any reason. Because we celebrate quite too often ;) we didn't do anything special that day. We just decided to eat out.

When we were done and moved out of the restaurant, we ran into a lady. Well, much more than a normal human could endure. She was sitting on a chair at one corner. While we passed her, she just said one thing, "Ma'm, can I take your one second? I'm really sorry I have to call you here, but I can't walk up to you.". I lost all my senses of right and wrong with that one sentence and walked up to her. She told me that she couldn't walk because of polio, but she could write with her right leg. She was there collecting money from people to register for a competition. There, she was going to write a poetry from her leg - for the first time publicly. We gave her what we could.

But, the next moment I realized that nothing we gave her would be enough. It all will fall short in front of her courage and strength. She could have easily sat at home, made her disability her excuse and got every need served. But she wanted to fight. She wanted to live - not just be alive. She wanted to do something special in her life -to achieve something. For her, there was no shortcut in life.

That spark - that zeal, enthusiasm is missing from most of our lives nowadays, specially mine. We dream big, and work hard. But when we get smaller that what we wanted, we compromise with it, without realizing that it could much be the first step towards something bigger - towards what we always wanted. We start believing that something is better that nothing and enter into our comfort zones. We still continue to work hard, but towards a different direction. We now work hard to survive, not to reach our goal. After seeing that lady that day, I realized that when you really want to do something, no hindrance is big enough - no obstacle is an excuse. That few minutes of interaction with that person stirred me inside and motivated me to work hard - not to survive but to reach my goal.

~PeAcE oUt~

The Employee Excellence Award

It was just another day with nothing special. Everything was going on in its own pace and according to its own routine. Everybody would have got up - got ready for their daily jobs and would have continued just like any other day. I was also one of them. I also pursued my daily chores usually and reached office. 

Its my habit that when I reach office, I keep my bag besides me, and then I pull out the chair, check the mails and then I go and get a cup of coffee before starting the rest of my day. I did the same that day, too. I kept my bag besides me, sat on my seat and opened the mails. And then, it all changed. In a snap. There was a mail from the director that my team got the employee excellence award. My first award in this company. I was speechless. And honestly, till now I am. It was like a feat for me.

Slowly, as the days passed, the ripples settled. I got used to the fact that I got an award. It was not the same charm anymore! Everybody else also continued with their work. And me, I immersed myself that I just forgot about it. And then, yet again it was there. After a month. The official distribution of the momento and the price money. Now, it always raises butterflies in my stomach when I think about the moment. But, here it is - I did it! And now, it's just there. On my desk - making me realize that I can do whatever I want - motivating to work even harder.

~PeAcE oUt~

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

The beginning of a new phase of life..!!

OnCe UpOn A tImE...
22 years ago, a yet another seemingly insignificant life was born - insignificant to the whole world - but the most important to a few people. Yes, if you already guessed it - I am talking about myself. I was born as the elder child in my family.

I looked exactly like my mom - just a fairer version of her, and I am proud of that. Since the day I was born, my mom fell madly in love with me. She even named me after a lot of research here and there. I was so special for her. But for everybody else, I was just another kid. My school life continued just like every other child - except, that, my father didn't consider me like her daughter. He always brought me up like his son. He didn't put any unnecessary restriction on me, which would have made me weak. I love him for that. I committed the same mistakes in my school which every other child does - failing exams - forging my father's signatures - lying to parents to go out with friends. But sooner or later, they would have had it found out. The irony is, they never scolded me. They always made me understand in their own way.

WhEn It AlL wAs JuSt ThE sAmE...
Life continued like any other day. The final two years of school life were "apparently" the golden years of my life. I had experienced everything - irritating teachers - trying to elope away from studies - having fun with friends. I became the naughtiest kid of my batch, but still managed to get more than a decent score. :)

AnD tHeN oNe FiNe DaY...
It was a day, just like any other. Everything was on its routine. Except it changed everything for me. July 31, 2006 - when I first stepped out of my home to be on my own - and then began the college life. My parents were worried, and to admit honestly, so was I. With no one around me to guide what was right and what was not, I took my share of risks to encounter my own share of experiences. If I look back today, I realize that most of them were wrong, but today if I am in a position to judge that they were wrong, its because I took them.

With those decisions, the path of my life started deviating from others. Four years of college life - every year a new lesson. Lost uncountable number of people who mattered to me, who were close to me - but found a new bunch of handful of them - and I am proud of that. During college, everybody looked down at me. But as time passed, I learnt to fight with the situation and create my own place in the crowd.

It AlL cHaNgEd In A bLiNk...
As the final year of college life approached, because of recession, no one had a job in their hand. But as the first opportunity arrived, I grabbed it. Faced a hugely tough competition, but there I was - the first one in my batch to get placed. I would have never done that, but it was only because of the words of my mom that I made through it. She always said, "If there is even the slightest possibility of something happening, it means you CAN do it."
It was the blessings and love of my parents, plus the strength and determination to do anything I want to, added with a little of my hard work.

AnD iT cOnTiNuEs
Today, when they walk in the crowd, they walk with pride. I am not really sure if I have done something as significant as that, but the fact that I have done something, which has brought satisfaction to them is enough for me. Even if it came after facing a hard time and losing so many people, I know it was worth it.

I know those four years of my life were not bad, because had they not happened, I would not have been at this stage.

Since I am returning to blogging after a huge period of time, this first post is dedicated to my parents and my special friends who made everything special for me, without whom I would have been a completely different person. They are the people, who didn't despise me even when I did everything to hurt them. They still stuck to me. Hats off to them.


HoPeS fOrEvEr....
This is a new phase of my life - which has just begun. But I am more mature than before - more patient than before - and more modest than before. I hope to continue making my parents proud. I owe everything, I have today, to them. 


When I was young, they used to make me feel special. Now is the time when I have to make them feel the same.


~PeAcE oUt~